我的爸妈要因为我伤心失望到何时? 而我又何时能做到不令他们失望?

很常下定决心要做很多事，但至今一件小事也未能办到。

这令自己也开始怀疑自己，是否永远都会是这样的人。

最近我又做了一件伤人的事，我伤害了我的父母。因为我让他们相信我，给予我太高的期望。我们大家都知道，希望越大，失望越大。

我答应他们我要考好，我从高一就那么答应，但从未做到。
我答应他们好多好多事，但在握印象中，好像从未做到。难怪其他孩子小学毕业后，就未曾有被父母惩罚，而我却被父母调教到十八，也未曾醒悟。而且还越来越糟糕，令他们越来越失望。


为什么我要答应他们? 为什么我要给他们希望? 因为我要他们高兴，我要他们能够以我为荣。结果我又再次糟蹋他们的希望。我真是个不孝女。上天会惩罚我吗?

歌手：许美娴 , 专辑：内疚专辑


('小孩不笨'插曲)
我不断的摸索自己，企图改变一些叹息
我知道你对我的期许，是将来眼光的抵御
你今日无助的词句，都带着明日的讯息
我知道你对我的心意，而我就是有心无力
我还有什么可以给你，我不断的问自己
我不断的想不断的再找寻
我知道你一直都辛苦，为我默默的付出
就算流泪也不承认你哭，我是生在福中不知福
所以我用尽我的全部，来告诉你我没有认输
还有什么可以给你，我的爹娘我的父母
还有什么可以给你，我的爹娘我的父母!!

寂寞

I am so use to being alone these days.

I ate my favorite meal in the whole while world- instant noodle, till I’m sick of it.

I talk to myself, like I am a freak.

I can only cry out to myself, when I feel sad.

I don’t want to feel pity of myself, but I can’t help it.

There is nobody I can rely on anymore.

There is nobody I can be dependent on anymore.

If I hope for too much, I’ll get more disappointment;

If I get more disappointed, I’ll get anger;

If I am angrier, I’m more emotional.

I can’t be emotional, because I have no one to rely on anymore.

From all and all, I learn to cherish myself more.

From learning to cherish myself more, I learn to cherish I, and myself only.

There is nobody worth relying but I, and myself.

I can only be represented by my identity.

My identity is concluded by my personal success.

My personal success can only mean it through things I own alone.

Things I can own it alone is my education, my appearance, my health, my job, my way of defining things, my own path.

Walking alone might seem pitiful, but at least we won’t get hurt by someone else, we won’t be disappointed by someone else, the only disappointment we will have is toward ourselves for having such unkind memory.  

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好

寂

寞寂寞就好

词/曲：施人诚/杨子朴
编曲：钟兴民
制作人：吕祯晃、郭文宗

还是原来那个我 不过流掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺 迟早我会还这张脸一堆笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错
早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去 痛到 受不了 想到 快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会 笨到 忘不了 赖着 不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 借来的都该还掉

我总会把你戒掉


还是原来那个你 是我自己做梦你有改变什么
再多的爱也没用 每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看得见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去 痛到 受不了 想到 快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会 笨到 忘不了 赖着 不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 我总会把你戒掉

蔡旻佑 - 寂寞好了

寂寞，好了

作词：张天成
作曲：彭学斌

拼命的上网　闷坏的胸口让我
想大声的呐喊
我努力不放
你冷淡　你让分手就这样 我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了　还是一天？　计算着慌张
计程车上的音响
我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏 夜深了我怎么办　寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂　想她　念她　恨她 一个人你害怕吗

细数过满天星光 说好永远不分开　多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
心放空了　寂寞好了

坚强外表下　我脆弱　情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落 秋天过了　冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想 舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光

夜深了我怎么办　寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂　想她　念她　恨她 一个人你害怕吗
细数过满天星光 说好永远不分开　多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
心放空了　寂寞好了

坚强外表下　我脆弱　情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落 秋天过了　冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想 舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜　伤多痛　都释放

夜深了我怎么办　寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂　想她　念她　恨她 一个人你害怕吗
细数过满天星光 说好永远不分开　多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
(没有你)心放空了　寂寞好了

Looking back to my past..

It's been quite a while since I last checked-in this website. 

There are something I miss. They are the old post that I had deleted few months back then. Those are words that grown up with me for the past few years. Since 2007, when I returned from the States, a little something light up my life, and that's when I start my own blog. Then, there is always happy and sad things going on, which made my life 'less boring'. I miss all those words and comments. Only if I could recover any of those, I would be glad.

However, I'm sure I would feel very embarrassed reading them over again, but a person should never forget their past. Only then they will learn from it and make a better future.

Writing this straight from my heart, reminds me of the sweet comedy I watched recently-

那些年，我們一起追的女孩 ( You Are the Apple of My Eye)

It is actually a real life story. It's about a guy writing a novel about his past. How he met his first love and how his buddies and him courting the same girl . How they went from being nothing to do with each other, to ambiguous of each other, but never end up together as they come to their adulthood. They girl end up marrying another guy. One misunderstanding make such difference. But everyone is happy for the girl. 

I think that's the reason how he is able to write such a good novel?

A little lesson I learn from this novel, never let go of what's in front of me that I love and cherish so much. 

and also

Try to be happy for someone else if you really do care and love them.

At least that's the message I learn from this movie.


I added some YouTube clips from you tube playing the songs from the movie. The original one and the keyboard version played by V.K.(the version I like best among all keyboard players I have seen playing this song)



The original version:

The V.K. keyboard version: